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Name: Lauren
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Metro: Springfield
Birthday: 5/10/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Watching Mario Tennis played by a bunch of nerdlebums, I love to avoid choosing a major, and I definitely know all the waitresses at Buffalo Wild Wings. I also have a darn good time with Tyler Wasman.
Expertise: Assistant Directing (So says Emily Mauldin) and somehow aquiring all completely crazy and musically talented friends.
Occupation: Executive
Industry: Textiles
Message: message me
Member Since:
8/13/2005
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| That whole idea of a "new level of calm"...yea, that just got thrown out the window. Last night Lauren was, yet again, blown off by....you guessed it....a guy. I DONT GET IT! Aren't there any good ones left that know how to treat a woman?! We deserve honesty, dignity, honor, and diligence! And what's worse is the one guy that has been wonderful to me through our entire relationship and even after just turned out to be like all the rest. Oh, my phone has been de-activated as a result of this new development so call my dorm 873-7044 if you need me. Don't be too disappointed when you guys come home to a bitter, cynical feminist. :) | | |
| Quick edit.....dont read anything below this. Well, you can if you want to but through what im sure is divine intervention, i feel much better. There is a girl out there who's story of compassion and dignity just inspiried me to a new level of calm. I guess that's all i needed, someone to be beautifully honest about something very ugly in this world. Thank you, Natalie. | | |
| Have you ever been to the point where you go, "Okay, I can't ever do the right thing...why even try?" I'm not there yet, but I've had fleeting thoughts on this topic. Stepping on damn eggshells...that's my life. I can't express my true feelings because...oops, there's another person I offended! No one can ever understand or even appreciate the idea of brutal honesty...no matter how long it's been, they will ALWAYS hold a grudge. I've tried to be the good girl, i've tried to be the fun girl, the crazy girl, the smart girl, the sensitive girl...and i can't seem to find my niche. I know I shouldn't change myself to please people but, sorry to burst your bubble, that's all humanity is! Whether you're trying to get them to heaven, get their drunk butts to the bathroom, or even getting your own drunk butt to the bathroom...you're always pleasing or not pleasing someone. After a while, pleasing people backfires...Yea, preach that you shouldn't care...college is about finding out who you really are....and i plan to but, now, im frustrated as crap. As crap! Anyone else feel me on the fact that listening to music either determines or affects one's mood? I could be driving to my own birthday party, the right song comes on and I'm a bawling baby. Well, it's my birthday and I can cry if i want to, right? Okay, bad joke. Anyways, i have a paper to write...I love you all and miss you everyday...and i know you love me no matter what....whether im trying to please you or not. Oh, guess what music im listening to? That's right...."Adam's Song" by Blink 182.... | | |
| okay, so to fix the problem my last entry created, let me fill you all in on why tyler and i broke up. tyler did not screw me over in the least. while, at times, he made me feel a bit insecure and belittled, it was more my fault than his. he was the best boyfriend i could ask for. our relationship got screwed over however because i was not ready to keep it going. i had so much crap going on in my life and still do. tyler is the most amazing man i've ever met and he is, along with will, the exception to the jerk rule. the jerk rule applies to all the guys prior and all my guy friends after (at drury) tyler. while this may seem confusing, i am just trying to erase all general comments so no one feels alienated. tyler, i cannot express to you my feelings for you. they are unexpainable. please know that i would never in my right mind say you screwed me over. | | |
| Dearest Charity Kaiser, I love you and it's no big deal. if we rated how much we loved one another by how much we read their xanga's...we'd all be in trouble. An update on Lauren Cox's life...well, this week will suck. I haven't showered in a day so far because I've been up all night studying...and as far as I can tell, this will probably be the norm. Gross, but beneficial. Plus, Lauren is starting her new years resolutioning early...no more fast food. That makes me want to cry at times. Anyways, the male half of the population only brings conflict. Unless Johnny Depp knocks on my door with a giant harry winston, I'm done with the jerks. Except for you Will, you're amazing. Even if it was JD, he's too old. After the last dozen experiences I've had with men, I've been screwed over by every single one and I'm done. About a year ago, I had a chat with Charity about how most girls seem to make it their purpose in life to find a guy with a pocket-book and settle down...neither of us wanted to live like that. I still feel that way but it's getting harder and harder not to just throw in the towel and settle. Even if I tried to hold out for the one amazing guy...I'm so exhausted from life that I don't know if I could wait. Maybe I'm just tired and maybe I'm just missing a certain someone entirely too much for my own good, but I'm sick of feeling insecure. Since when did my heart rely so much on what damned guys think? I guess since they quit caring.
Oh, Nina Hu is now one year older and one year more beautiful...thank god for her.
On a separate note, this friday is the biggest party of the semester on campus...pray for no deaths and fun for all! :)
Nina, I dont know why you bug me to update so much, there's nothing terribly interesting going on.
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